At 1:21am on December 1st, the Moon was new again. Yes – that’s 1:21 on 12/1. Cool the way the Universe can spell things out for us, isn’t it?

The focus for the last cycle was, fittingly, Crossroads – where I’d wondered whether to cloister myself away or venture out into the world and try to make some kind of difference; it was a search for purpose and meaning.

There are always choices at a Crossroads – you can move forward, you can move to one side or another, you can retreat and move backwards, or you can even stand still. I was watching myself move through the potential choices as I stood. I really grappled with what this focus was going to be for a long time.… More...

At 8:47am on November 1st, the moon was new again. The theme for the last cycle was Definition. In an effort to figure out what Mattered, I wanted to try to take some time to figure out exactly who I was. The results were mixed.

October presented numerous opportunities for personal growth. I faced challenges with new people in unfamiliar environments, there were vibrant gigs with the band, which allowed me to express myself musically. I overcame obstacles that were Defining to my professional identity. I had a moment with my spiritual community that was deeply resonant. However, I realize that these experiences are merely components that could belong to anyone. Nothing truly stood out as a unique path for my Definition.… More...

At 2:49pm yesterday, the moon was New. The last time I was this close to the actual date was in May, but this theme hit me like a ton of metaphorical bricks over the weekend and needed to come out now.

In this last cycle, I focused on Mattering. I wanted to feel some inherent sense of relevance – not so much to other people but to myself. I wanted to find a space where I didn’t always feel like I needed to overextend.

This over-extension comes from a need to be all things to all people as flawlessly as possible. This brings with it a seemingly never-ending torrent of contingencies – over-anticipating every possible perceived need. Every need, of course, except my own.… More...

The Moon became new on Monday, September 2nd, at 9:56pm. Despite being the end of a relaxing Labor Day, I wasn’t yet in a place to commit to a focus for this month. Now, as we approach a full moon tomorrow night, I think I finally have my theme.

In a way, the uncertainty around this cycle’s focus makes sense. Last month I talked about Freedom, and how I wanted to leave behind the identities that I’d crafted or adopted and write my own story. When you basically give your spirit a blank sheet of paper, what do you choose to write?

I ran through several potential themes, each based on different facets of my life. Some fulfilling and inspiring, and some where resignation had replaced motivation.… More...

The moon was last new on August 4th at 7:13am. The last cycle’s theme of Experience saw me trying to differentiate between the kinds of Experiences I was living through – trying to make sense of what does and does not work for me is a lifelong effort. Thankfully, I believe I’m starting to realize that reading from an outdated script serves no one – and that the best Experiences are those that are true to the nature of our individual essence.

Over the past several years, as I put more and more distance between myself and past traumas, I have come to see the friction caused by my living life on my own terms versus my feeling some sense of obligation to ‘the other’ – some amorphous entity for whom I’ve been performing through this life.… More...